I never fit into a social scene, gay or straight because I'm one of those people that is constantly outside of myself. OKay, okay, well I shouldn't say I don't fit in, cause I am the person that when I walk in a room, most people tend to know who I am. And yet I feel this awkward silence in my heart around a lot of things, because I feel so much more for my life that is hard to express in this world. In a gay venue, I can't really find the space to talk about my greater self my life, my spiritual aspects of who I am or my deepest passions and desires. In the straight venue, much is still surfacy, but when I can talk about my spirituality I can't talk about how divinity has helped me to come to terms with my own sexuality. I can't say Jesus helped my to be gay to my christian friends. It's so interesting. Anyway, all in all, I'm a person who cares, who loves, who feels and who is moved by lifes mysteries. I am moved in a way that challenges me to seek beauty in all things that come along my road of life. To challenge my biases and stereotypes of the world and the way I've been raised to understand it. I'm a person who believes it is my duty and social responsibility to stand up for what I believe in, which beyond anything is love. The love for one human being to another whether in a sincere friendship or a deep and abiding intimate interpersonal relationship. I am that person that believes so strongly in that I would even give my life for those beliefs. Anyway, that is who I am...in a nutshell. When it comes to meeting someone, I'm at a juncture in my life...don't know who I really want to meet, when, where, how....life is all circumstantial it seems. The person I'm meant to be with, I will meet, and if I don't meet someone, it wasn't meant to be. Most important thing to note though is that I try to live my life respecting people for all of who they are. To see the inner beauty, and to acknowledge the human person that exists within all of us. I don't like to fall in love with the exterior walls that we all tend to put up, but the true and genuine part of an individual. I want to meet someone whom I can be weak with, but also to know that they know they can be weak with me. I'm an intellectual to some degree, also laid back too, but wouldn't mind meeting someone with a brain and a sense of humor to match. I'm an athlete and would love to meet people who wouldn't mind kickin a ball around or shootin some hoops every now and then. Looking for friends or whatever, just hate to be in a position where I am seen for WHAT I am more than for WHO I am. NO DRAMA!! DRAMA FREE ZONE HERE!!!! NO DRAMA!!! DRAMA FREE ZONE!! Why are you here? Why am I here? Are you really here for a hook up, for sex...or is there something else? Are you one of those who seeks love, companionship and warmth, but are too afraid to take that step of caring for those whom come and go into your life? Even if it's a brief encounter on some random chat room online? What if you met the next Albert Einstein or MLK and you never took the time to get to know them? What if you met the love of your life you've so desperately sought out, but only allowed yourself to be taken by what they look like and not WHO they are as a person? What are the things you are missing by passing those human beings by as temporary sensations to your greater hurts and pains. I believe you can find love, peace and connection. But it's up to you. It means taking a moment to reflect on the beauty of the human spirit. To see the depth that is possible within every human person, and to believe in every way that all people have a story to tell, a song to sing, and love to give. We were all once children before. I often reflect on those days and how I was so innocent, but care free. There wasn't this cat and mouse game of who says what, how to say it, etc, etc. It was hi, I'm bobby, want to play with me in the sand box? Friends were made so much simpler back then, and it wasn't a shallow friendship, it was the complete and utter openness of our soul to another human being. Yeah it was hard, for some, harder than others, but in the end, isn't that what we really want? The friend to go to the movies with, the friend who will come over after a long day and just hang out, a person you can tell your deepest thoughts too, and a person who will do the same back? So think about what your missing in another person, where they came from and who they are. Then think about all of the people who have come and gone from your life and who have missed out on the greater person that you are. Don't we all deserve better? Don't we all deserve a true friend? Even you? Even me?